Launch Day: No Sales Yet, But I’ve Never Felt More Free

There’s this weird numbness sitting in my chest today.

Ashes & Armor launched this morning.
My inbox is quiet.
My feed isn’t blowing up.
No sales yet.

And you know what? I thought I’d be crushed by that. I thought I’d be spiraling into self-doubt and shame, thinking,
“What the hell did I do wrong?”

But I’m not.

Because for the first time in a long time—I don’t feel like I failed. Because I finally did the damn thing. Because I couldn’t not do this.

I Stopped Shrinking

I stopped waiting.
I stopped shrinking.
I stopped letting the fear of not being “enough” keep me silent.

And here’s the truth that’s been sitting heavy in my chest for years:

All that suffering—those years of walking through fire, of staying quiet when I wanted to scream, of surviving things no one should ever have to survive—it had to mean something.

This Was Never About Numbers

It couldn’t just be pain for the sake of pain. It couldn’t just be the thing that decided who I was going to be.

I needed to take that wreckage and build something out of it. I needed to believe that maybe, just maybe, I could be someone else’s voice. Maybe I could be someone’s shield. Maybe all the hell I went through could help someone else find their way out.

I Am Here—Wrecked, Healing, and Still Fighting

So no—this launch isn’t about a number. Not today.

Today is about refusing to stay invisible. It’s about saying I am here—wrecked and healing and still fucking fighting.

Even if this flops. Even if no one buys a damn thing. I will still be proud.

Because I broke my silence.
Because I showed up.
Because I turned pain into purpose—and that will always matter more than numbers.

If You’re Waiting for the “Right” Time—This Is It

If you’re reading this and you’ve been holding back your truth, waiting for the “right” time—fuck that.

Do it scared.
Do it broken.
Do it messy.
But do it.

You don’t owe this world a polished version of yourself. You owe yourself freedom.

And that’s what today is for me.

Freedom.

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